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April 26, 2005

To My SDRR Love

The night approached and the sun hung heavy in the distance
Waiting for the car, butterflies danced all around
The car pulled up and the seat was filled with other
He climbed in the back, I entered without a sound
Pulling away with the intent of being together
I jumped out the window, onto the roof of the car
The atmosphere was just too thick and advanced for me, but
I had to find a way to get out of the bar
"What's wrong?" she asked in our aloneness
"I'm scared" stuck in my throat and wouldn't be heard
So I sat as still as I could and she gave up trying
The answer implied without having to say a word
I was told to be brave and hold my ground without crying
But a tear got caught in my leg and it wouldn't shake
What I wanted and what I got were totally different
I want to matter, but don't know what it'll take
I know what she wants, but I don't know if I'm ready
To take up the yoke and let her have her way
It seems all I'd get in return is something physical
Which doesn't count when emotions have their say
My feelings said I was being discarded
Or tucked beneath some long-forgotten stone
I waited, holding back the hurt for three weeks
Let down because she did not come alone
So she dropped me off and we walked to the door in silence
Entered and stood there kissing in the hall
She left with the intention of some day returning
Assuring me that she would soon call
My guard had dropped, she saw the question I wasn't asking
Doubt set in the entirety of my expression
So what she did was declare herself teacher
And explained that this was my first lesson.

Posted by BlueWolf on April 26, 2005 11:01 PM