My next shot at the BCRAN is on the 9th.
Funny how things can change in a mere 24hrs. Just last night I had decided to give up. I thought hey, this is crazy pressuring myself like this. I'll just take the 'easy' (for me now) CCNA recert exam and then I'll have plenty of time to work on my BCRAN studies. I made up my mind and then went to sleep.
On my way home from the job site, I got a phone call from a friend. By some twist of fate, I was travelling east on 195 and she was travelling west on 195. We were both about 10 miles from Fall River. We met for dinner (which was really nice because we hadn't seen each other in a while). She asked if I had taken my retest yet. I explained the situation about having to take it before the 10th or else recert at the lower level. It was just so clear to her that this indicated that I needed to take it. It was like there was no other answer that could be imagined.
Sometimes it's not what people say, but how they say it. And it's not their emphasis on certain words or tone of voice, but that inexplicable 'something'... There was just that 'something' in the way she responded. It felt like there was an underlying message to me from somewhere beyond the immediate realm. The only way I can describe it is that it would be like the "seeing" described by Carlos Casteneda. It's not looking with your eyes, but looking at something slightly unfocused so that the perception of it contacts your awareness. The situation of our meeting for dinner was coincidental enough. When you're thinking of someone and then they call you, it strikes you as a happy oddity. Then you happen to be the exact same distance from somewhere you know well enough to suggest a meeting place. Okay, this is strange enough to make you pay attention. And then there's this message which you receive which is surrounded by such crystal clarity and insight. The Twilight Zone theme begins to play. You should really write these things down when it happens.
I took it as a sign that I really should try this test one more time.
Posted by BlueWolf on December 7, 2005 11:34 PM